Last week I found out that a woman I work with is a shamanic healer. That’s pretty cool. I’m fascinated by the art, and the timing couldn’t be more spot-on.
Over the weekend I made a tough decision to leave a friendship that is very special and important to me. There’s a lot of baggage in this relationship, causing it to have spiraled increasingly downward over the past 4 years — with a pretty big plummet the last few months; we fight and cry all the time and don’t know how to have fun around each other anymore. It makes me very sad and I’ve been trapped in it for way too long. I’m pleased with my choice to take a leave of absence (a friend vacation, I call it), but I know it’s going to be tough being alone with the damage it has done me. It is absolutely necessary for me to forgive and forget and completely let go of it all; I need to be successful because I cannot continue to perpetuate the fall of what was once such a sweet, fulfilling and happy love.
My co-worker and I had lunch together today, during which we spoke about her shaman practice. I was surprisingly open and explained my situation and reason for my interest — the life change stated above as well as a desire to explore my spirituality. I’m meeting her Friday for an Illumination (an aura cleanse, in other belief systems). If I like it, I plan to continue seeing her for some soul retrieval work. The timing on this feels enchanted; it’s so perfect. I want to drop all my baggage, resentment, pain, anger, fears, etc. so I can, one day, return to a satisfying friendship with the most special person to have touched my life so far. I love you, T-Bear.
Very nice!!
Thank you so much Breanne for letting me into your blogged world. I find it sincere and a bit surprising.